希望是什么??

每天上班下班,忙忙忙!!!
人生不知有何事可以快乐?
最近一直不开心,看了两轮医生,说压力大,以前最不耻吃安眠药,现在伦落到自已也要吃,真是惨啊!!
做什么都不顺心,整天烦烦烦啊,好想一个人,什么也不管,可是不行啊,我还有亲爱的家人.....
到现阶段,我不知我要什么??我很彷徨,我到低要什么????
我不想生活在吉隆坡,我想一个人逃得远远的,去一个没人认识我的地方重新来过,就不用每天痛苦过日子.
如果可以重新来过,我宁愿我重没在吉隆坡出现,我宁愿一个人安安静静的过日子.......
没希望,没目标..............
生存到地有什么意思呢??????????????????

和他在一起那么多年了,日子越过越痛苦.他越变越过份,我很累,和他在一起,我不知是对或错??
我只是要他的关心,也那么难吗???我只是想他对我好,可是他可以对身边所有人好,也不对我好!
有时让我感到他只是要找个伴,闷的时候解闷.没钱时那钱,为何我就得不到幸福呢?
要找人诉苦才发现身边已没朋友!
事业,爱情,友情;一团糟,不知明天会如何??我很茫然,不知前路会如何?????
就近发生太多事了,身心疲累,很想抛开一切,在一个新的地方重新开始!!
到低可以去那呢?????
现在的世界是否已没了真心??到低还有什么呢?
难道他们说的对,自已一个人才过的好吗????
我是否该离开他????

lonely 25

haha, old aready. 25 years old liao, why so fast............
actually i dont ve any mood abt my birthday.........
tml need go to interview hr, for complaint cases.......
too nervious, scared i cant fully explain caused my english not good..........
i need go to medan pasar for interview, not my office,too bad..........
but luckily this coming weekend i can go to pangkor for celebrate my birthday, but dont noe is real or lie?????????
after tml will know what is the outcome for that old women..........
happy birthday to all same birthday wf me...........

haha, 1st time complaint in workstation!!

i think today is my 1st time making complaint ot my colleague....
yesterday the old women early in the morning was scold me, scold me done a lot of bad things, will die in bad condition, will have bad ending in the end, harassed me until i nearly lose control, luckily my eq is very good one, still can control, she oso talk abt my relicious, i dont think i will ignored this, i dont think i can simpy forget and forgive.........
that's why i wrote a cmplaint letter to my boss, luckily my frend helped me wrote the letter, if not my poor english how can explain those cruel word..........
so today i kena interview by two boss, need to explain and explain, but i dont ve evidence, because she always scold me only me and her environment.....
after my boss interview her, my boss said she didnt agreed that she have said b4 that such cruel word...
she said all is my imagination, haha, so funny, very free, no need to work, do such things out...
when she interview, she said that all my team member dont want frend wf me, after that she told abt my sosial life is good, that's why i asked all my team member boycott her, even though for whole floor also boycott her because i asked them to do, so funny, how i can control those ppl mindset??
i think she got mental problem, she dont noe only, but colleague wf these ppl, i think one day i oso will crazy, she said i'm complaint her today, tml she oso want to sent the complaint letter to human resource, complaint me and oso my manager, because she think that my manager side me..........
so funny caused i didnt do anythings but kena a lot of scoling........
what kind of human of her??
i want to tell all these things to bf but when i juz start talk, he act like didnt hear i'm talking, right now really tired, working tired, relationship tired, even though for my family member, i oso felt tired, who can save me???????????
run run run away frm all of these, can????????

black day

today really black........
started to early in the morning, when i show my monthly travel pass to the security, they allow me to go into the lrt station, i throw the resit into the rubbish bin, after reached the masjid jamek lrt station, the guard was tahan me, said ur pass is only for bus system, cannot used for lrt..he told me that got a lot ppl also bought the wrong ticket, but every month i bought at lrt station, recently they got a new package, that's why they have two package same price.
but the girl didnt ask me what ticket i want, just give me ticket...
u all know the montly ticket actually look like is same, only color is different each month, but bus ticket this month is yellow color, but lrt ticket is grey blue color, is big different....
masjid jamek station ppl ask me go back wangsa maju to changed the ticket, but early in the morning, how can go back, got jam in lrt, if let say i go back, i think today i sure will late..
but why wangsa maju guard didnt do his job, today morning when i pass by the gate there is around 7.10am, not much ppl, only 2 ppl included me....
he can check rite, i remember he just got see my ticket but he didnt say anything...
after work, when i reched the wangsa maju lrt station, the feral said cannot changed caused i throw away the ticket...
too bad, i want to complaint, where can i complaint????
why these things can happened?????
this is their fault, if the couter girl ask me lrt or bus, i can get the right ticket, if the guard stop me, i can changed the new ticket...but they didnt do anything........
because this things is not happed to him, that's why they didnt care............
too bad.......
today oso forgot to bring my hp!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
cannot receive call...............
today kena scold by the crazy old women,,,,,,,,to bad......
the old women though who she is, everyday scold me without reasonable, complaint to manager,
ask me patient, she is crazy, dont bother...
but if u every morning scold by ppl, will u angry???
i chat wf colleague, also kena scold, she said i talk bad things of her.......
or every morning kena marah but others ppl, she scold me...
cannot quarrel wf her, everyone just tell me sabah,, how can sabah?????

dangerous heart

thursday again, everyday need to worry here, worry there, but finally what can i get???
nothing!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
why this few month no money, very poor now, dont where the money go????????????
need to save here and there, still not enough, how come???????????
very tired, too heavy burden......
planning to move house, dont noe where can move?????????
dont want stay wf his brother, everyday bring back girls, foreigner but not gf, change girl like changed cloth.....
i'm girl, i cant tahan, working tired already but go back home also tired, dont noe what can say..
nothing can say, very tired........
dont noe what can i do.........
what decision can i make, izzit the correct one?????????
after make the decision, will i regret????????
i just like stand in front of the traffic light, dont noe turn right or left?????????
confused, very agreed for the artical inside sam blog, girls just want the concern and console from boys, not order, not treat u like maid....

下雨的心

最近老是很烦恼,很累,不想讲任何事.整个人怪怪的,上班要面对他们,烦!回到家对着他,更烦!!!!!!
为什么和他没办法沟通??????
他就是不愿让我知道,出门只说和朋友出去,,,又不能问,要天亮才回,可是他不知道我会担心!!!!!!!
在一起这么多年了,我真的很累!!!!!!!!!!
每天要猜他到低要什么,他又不说,又要你明白.......
我真的很乱,不知道要做什么才好.
为何男人没钱也可以出去喝酒昵????
为何朋友的生日永远是最重要的?????
我到低是什么?????