MOOD

This is the 1st time i'm create blog, heard b4, but never try.
These few days the mood is not good, but nobody know, even my close friends also can't
it!Don't know hot to say, suddenly like lost something, but don't know what is it????
Just changed a new company, is quite good, got nice manager and colleague, this is good
!A lot of things was happened, that's why i become adult, hahaha!
something wrong with me, hahaha!
just saw my good friends blog, mentioned about his love story, is quite sad, but i think he can get
a good gf , he is quite nice ,but i knew him so many years i still can't know he is a shy ppl.
May be my sense got problem?????
I'm know i'm not a careful ppl, something i'm even don't know they all is for my own good,
i try to barred their concern.I'm though that i can handle by my own, but i'm totally wrong!!


Now i'm realize that i'm changed a lot of my charateristic, i'm from a active girl to a quite girl.
i'm like to hide at home,watch movie, even friends invite go out also don't want.I'm scare to go out, I'm scared to face ppl, why????
Only i'm stay at home i just feel safety, what's wrong with me???

I'm still believe in one word, "is you to suit the environment, not the environment to suit you"
but now i'm waiting the environment to suit me, so hard for me to face ppl, to communicate with the ppl, but b4 i'm like go out yum cha, chatting.

Rite now felt lonely, actually girls is simple.we just request a care from bf, concern from bf, not materiaristic.when walk together, can walk together not like he walk infront, me behind 500m, need to run run and run again.cross the road also same, he already crossed the road and turn to another road but i'm still waiting to cross the road.So bad, what the concern i want is simple, just turn behind and wait for me, not like a two ppl don't know each other!!!

I'm always complain to him,do you know what i want, but he always answer back to me, i try my best to give you all the things, you also not enough??But he don't know these is not i want.


Even the worst is untill now he also don't know what is my flavourite food?? I'm dislike a few food only, can't count out from finger but he said that is my flavourite food, So pity ah..........

But i'm agreed that he treated me good by his own ways, may be is the best way he can afford????


Today his not beside me, that's why i got chance to create a blog, he said only lonely ppl will do this, that's why i also felt that i'm lonely, is my heart lonely.................